await not the past but seize the future....

it seems like its been such a long time since my last post... i think it was more than a month ago... things have happened....and some things have not happened for me... lets have a flashback at what a month july was and how the ealier parts of aug turned out...july ---- college resumed...met up with the old gang again ...frens were reunited..and u start to see the similar faces again everyday.. the chaotic life of getting up early..being late for classes ... pissing teachers off..struggling with class as the days go by...wishing u didnt have to... somehow the classes have not been kind to me or have i not been kind to myself...not really paying attention in classes,..dunno why..maybe still in holiday mode.. then the month called AUGUST had to hit.. badminton tournament in my dept came out.. lost in early rounds...but due credit to the players..they were good..some not but mostly good..watched a couple of movies..break up was not good...click was awesome..made u think.. sometimes the bad parts in life are the things that define who u are...and u can always want to be a part of the good times in life only...u cant have only one..it's a package...take it or leave it..thats the way it is.. and if u bypass something important..u'll miss alot in life...and there's no rewind button in reality.. even if there was i know it would be like click where u can rewind but u cant change it...appreciate time even if it's never porportionate or should i say especially when it's never porportionate...my results from exams came out the other day... honestly wasnt close to wat i expected.. maybe thats wat u get for not putting in enough effort... was disappointed in how i'd done... but thankfully there's a redemption period... where i can somehow right my wrongs...failures are things that drive u forward.. await not the past but seize the future... thats what i'm goin to do now..why are ppl never satisfied with what they have or get?? i understand why now.. coz it's not what they want... and somehow if u have tat drive u will work and have that hunger thats essential to eventually being satisfied...i just needed to get that off my chest.. as i wondered where it all went wrong... but it's a process i believe..that i need to finish...these are the things that make u realise and look back and find a better route...a better ending...or should i say beginning...