you Can hAve fuN putTin the jigsaW's mAny pIeces TogetTher..Only then Can U find me..

my escape to sp is coming to an end as i speak...time continues to tick away telling me i'm just 1 day away from goin back to kl... i know this happens everytime i'm back in sp and then the time comes to go back... and each every time without fail... no matter wat awaits me there..no offense to frens over there in kl ya.. but i just feel like stayin here...maybe it's get less each time the longing to continue stayin here...it's diff for u guys maybe coz everyday after coll u get to go back to the comfort of ur home... knowin that u can do almost anything u want at home as long as ur mum doesnt scream her head off telling u ... DONT do that son/honey... call me homesick or anak mami or watever.. but still its diff for ppl like me and those who travel to kl to study or be it any other place... home is where the heart is...there's no place like home...home sweet home..i've only come to realise how true this sayings are only now...until i do get a place of my own..which i own or rent on myself.. sp will and always be my only home... somehow for me coming back to sp is so relaxing.. it's such a chillout place... u can go anywhere around sp...no jams watsoever.. sleep at home in my own bed...watch astro and dvd's( i dont have astro or dvd player in kl).. pc,online( no pc in kl as well) ... sad i know..but i can live without it.. at first i thought i would suffer without these 2 main influences in my life but it turns out i can.. thanx to my cousin though for lendin me his tv... and thank god for 8tv and tv3 who show good shows after 930ish...life would be depressin otherwise.. i complain alot though...looking back on what i've just written made me think of all those living in poverty .. disease..famine and so on...who am i to complain... with the banner above my blog givin a constant reminder.. ONE the campaign to make poverty history...sadly i cant contribute much to it now.. i can only help spread the word.. but when i do grow up i seriously wish to help ...and i will...if i can give money i will if i cant maybe i can give services..one day one day...talk is easy though...if i do forget...which i hope i dont...pls send a friendly reminder to me...okok back to wat i was saying... now i wish i had a longer holiday and didnt have to go back yet.. but this is how life is... you dont always get what u want... and i will try to live with what i got..and be thankful for it.. NEXT.. on to wat i have been doin this weekend..hehe.. mostly been sleeping,lazing around, online for countless hours,eating lots of food, went penang today..gurney plaza...jln jln... bought 1 or 2 stuff..came back and here i am... see why i like my life in sp..carefree... but then all these carefreeness( is there such a word??) has led to me reading only 1 chapter of my chem... my procastination towards my studyin had now landed me in deep shit..only now have i realised it.. i will have to work my butt off this coming 2 weeks to prepare myself...and i also cant be putting off my fmaths anymore..time and tide will wait for no man.. and since time is always unporportionate to the time we need to do stuff and finish it.... i have to start as off tomolo..last day of slacking off.. otherwise dreams will be destroyed..hopes shattered... future altered..i believe in my own choices controllin my fate..and once b4 i have said that next time i make certain decisions i wish to look at them from more angles than one...observe every aspect...think of the best not only for me but others..and at these point the others are my parents..want them to have their burden taken off abit..and the fact that i actually wanna study overseas but financial constraints may prevent me from that... therefore i have to work hard no matter what..towards a scholarship...impossible is nothing..it's a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in a world they have been given rather than explore the power they have to change it..thats something i believe in... sometimes i do say it's impossible.. but come to think of it.. humans once said it's impossible for man to fly,man to go to space...and look wat has happened today.. therefore impossible is not something that is constant.. It's a constant but not really a constant.. something like the hubble constant.. it's a constant at that particular time...but it changes after some time... therefore dare the impossible...make the dreams possible...I just love to these kinda things in my blog... talk inspirational stuff..i know sometimes ppl think that i talk loads of crap in my blog.. i dont blame you'll.. it may even be true..haha.. but then again...the essential factor in life comes into play.. TIME.. and in time i hope i will do wat i say... somehow writing all the inspirational stuff gets me inspired as well... this blog gives me a place to write down what i think and what goes around in my head now and then apart from Football of course or as someone says "fools"ball...haha... sometimes when i look back on what i've written it helps remind me of things i've said i will do but somehow i have forgotten bout..and i can get back on track..as long as my blog doesnt crash and all i've written goes to waste.. another thing too.. my fren recently told me that sometimes she gets lost in my blog.. in the sense all my points are jumbled up and there is no continuation from one thing to another.. let me explain why...when i blog i dont normally think what i'm goin to blog about and how i will pen it out.. i just start typin..and what comes out comes out .. in a random order.. i just try to get everythin i think about into this blog... and sometimes i have so much to write but dont have the time or resources to write it in my blog..so it stays in my head a few weeks and then in the end it cummulates to one long post in my blog..maybe some other day i can really sort out all this mess and put out the main points in a major summary of what i've blogged..haha that'll be good i think.. reminds me abit of roald dahl( just realised it's pronounced rooald dahl) ...not the major summary part though but the concept of penning out whatever thoughts he had .. just scribble it somewhere..coz sometimes this idea come to us only once ... and it might or might not come again.. therefore it's important i guess... I think i've written alot today..another post with lots of jumbled stuff together again..it's like i just threw a set of jigsaw puzzle on the floor and all the pieces are everywhere..and think of it this way..if you're smart..you can put the pieces back together and maybe then u can see what picture the jigsaw puzzle holds for u..it may be exactly what i'm thinkin or was thinkin when i wrote all this load of nonsense...ANYWAYS.... i'll be having another hiatus(hope its the correct spelling..) as long as u get the idea... there was this study also last time just remembered bout..by harvard students i think.. it says that it doesnt matter if the word is wrongly spelt provided all the actual letters are in the word and that the first and last letter is the same as the correctly spelt word.. that means even if i spelt carzy you would understand i meant to say crazy... you should google it out and find that research article again..i think it's true though.. so let me end this blog in the way that will do those researchers proud..it's almost like one long anagram though.. tahts all fokls ... i dnot konw waht to wtrie aynmroe...smae palce difrfent tmie...corerct spleligns nxet tmie...