when i was young i wanted to be older, now i wish i could go back...

when i was younger i couldn't wait to grow up... coz my bro and sis could do so many things i couldnt...for example when i was in primary school i wanted to cycle to school coz my bro and sis did that..but i was too small...later on i did cycle to school...but now i wished i was small..it wont be tiring to go to school..coz wouldnt have to pedal all the way...then later on in secondary school, i wanted to go out at nights...like my bro ....eventually when i got older i did go out also..this was fun however...no wishing to becoming younger... when i was small i also wished i was older..coz would get more pocket money.. Only then would i realise that when i was older ...more responsibilities came upon me as well...exams weren't as easy as they were b4... there were rules that applied to goin out and all... i couldnt get everything i wanted .... then of course there were girl probs... teenage life.... school sucked..frens were great though... But now after everything i'm at a crossroads in life i guess... i'm 18 now..finished spm..did ok in it..didnt get any scholarships though..was distraught by that...moved on though..now i'm goin to leave home for the first time to go somewhere else and really study i mean..i've away from home for holidays on my own and all but ..this is different.... after spm..i couldnt wait to get out of sp...the centre of boredome in my life was what i thought..however now after all has come and gone...i will really miss sp... SP wasnt that bad actually....A lot of frens here...everyday i would relax after spm..
watch tv, play ps2 , online..... i wont be able to do much of this in kl..will really miss that..and of course family..though u may at first think i wont miss them a bit...but in the end when u're actually goin u'll surely miss them..and frens of course and the memories in sp and school....But that's how life is.. you've got to move on,..you cant stay put in one place...otherwise you wont become something more than you already are... you can't expect to be the person you want to be in life just be taking the easy path in life.... you need to climb a mountain to get to the top...
someone's goin to do it...why not you..so this thurs will be leaving home..for kl...i go with mixed feelings but no regrets...only by doin this, will i be more independant and make something of myself..just my thoughts...

Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved. -William Jennings Bryan (1860 - 1925)

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