sometimes crap might actually have a meaning..

i'm not sure how many ppl actually watch the show One Tree Hill....but i'm sure there are quite a few...seriously i think the show is quite good...it has lot of suspense...the characters were previously somewhat unknown..and now they've made a name of themselves...there's always lots of conflict..which is a good thing for a series i believe..as it makes the audience wonder how the outcome of the situation is goin to be.. and sometimes i dont know how certain tv shows really connect to oneself esp when you're a teenager...For me for instance sometimes when i watch certain tv shows,movies or even music somehow ,something in it gives me inspiration to try harder to do better...As for One Tree Hill in season 2 and certain episodes of season 1 the show always ends with lucas (one of the main characters) giving a quotation or saying something that someone has written... To me i find that very interesting as sometimes those quotations make u seriously think about whats happening around you...last saturday's show ended with lucas quoting what the author stephen king once wrote..."time always leads u to be lost in the darkness...but sometimes in the darkness you find others that are lost too...and somehow u manage to find a way out together..(i cant really remember what he said now..but it was something along those lines of sometimes finding others who are just as lost as you in the darkness) .......some of you'll must be thinkin i must be talking bullshit here and none of what i've said has ever been true ...but honestly i dont really care....this is what i think i thats all that matters to me unless u've got something really constructive to say...Kurt cobain once said...and i got this off tv as well " i rather be hated for who i am than be loved for someone who i'm not"...what do u actually realise from those words?? i realised thats it's always better to be yourself than be someone you're not or that u cant ever be...there will never be 2 ppl exactly identical in whatever they do,feel etc. i believe....However what happens when all your life you've never once tried to be who you really are? U've done this so badly till you've even forgotten who u truly are ? what happens then? what do u do?... do u continue ur life as it is and continue pretending somemore? or try to seriously find yourself again in this world...i think i sometimes have this dilemma ...there are truly times i've wondered who i really am....what is this life all about?
but then there's still time to find out....and find out i will indeed..hopefully along the way there will be light and ppl to help..coz this journey cannot be alone...after all that has been written..could all this be abunch of bullshit? judge for yourself....


In theory, there is no difference between theory and practice; In practice, there is.
~ Chuck Reid

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.
~Bill Cosby (1937 - )